BECOMING FEARLESS. UNLOCKING YOUR INNER STRENGTH.
PERSONAL GROWTH SERIES-CHAPTER EIGHT
I’ve always been somewhat of a fearless person, and the thought never even crossed my mind to write about fear because when you read these chapters, you kind of get that through my words. However, I just got a little reminder on my phone that a few years ago, I was sitting in a chemo chair for my fifth treatment.
I used to watch videos of the ocean waves crash repeatedly, visualizing that I would one day make it back to the beach. No more ports and picc lines, no more drugs, no more relapses. Just me on the beach. Being my old happy, healthy version of myself. Again, that was a sign I had to write about being fearless. I’m literally sitting here living the life I thought I would never get back. If you are someone who needs a little push from someone, I’m your girl. I’m definitely not a daredevil or an adventure thrill seeker. I’m not into scary shit or heights. Fuck the fear, make a list of shit you need to make happen, and do it. You only live once. I got my life back, so I know and feel that it’s my duty to help you become fearless.
How I got through chemo, a misdiagnosis, six legal cases, and a list of other traumatic life events was the fact that I was fearless. I was also absolutely petrified of dying, although I knew that was always an option. I know, deserve, and expect more, and I know that you do too. What are you afraid of? Make a list and tackle them one at a time. Don’t try to be an overachiever here; it’s just too much. Trust me, I’ve already tried. Start by asking yourself why you are afraid. Journal that shit out and meditate on it. I mean, try hypnosis if that helps. If you have the answers, then it’s easier to get over, as I mentioned earlier.
There is something so magical about putting pen (in my case, pencil) to paper. If there wasn’t, then I would not be doing double the work for myself to write this series or my next book. I would have just audio recorded it and dictated it all. I wanted to face my own fears about writing. Can I do it? Is anybody going to read it? Why would they buy my book and not someone else’s with a bigger following and notoriety? Are they going to think this two in one book idea is insane?
I worked hard on my thoughts, meditated, answered my questions mentioned above, and made this book happen. Everyone has a story to share, and this is mine. Everyone has unique gifts to offer to the world, and this is mine. Life lessons, advice, and delicious healthy recipes. It’s good to be scared, have a challenge. It helps us personally grow and become better versions of ourselves. Fearless!
I looked at my chemo treatments as a job, and ten years before (again, not the norm) that I was taking care of someone who was going through the same thing. It was my job! So, I knew when it was my turn to act the same. I always had to fight for sanity and peace of mind all by myself. On those days, I would mentally have to convince myself that the drug getting dumped into my veins would not close my throat up in a matter of seconds and kill me because it could have at any given moment. I mean, it definitely tried…
My anxiety would be through the roof, and when I showed up, I would just be in full panic mode even after the drugs they gave me. I would have somehow convinced myself today would be my last day on Earth, and then I would start to visualize my funeral and see everyone who was there. I know that’s super dark, but that’s fear. My fear, my story, my truth, my darkness. I fought those fears, fought the thoughts, fought the drugs, and fought the doctors, and I won.
I won because I don’t think like that anymore, thanks to years of therapy. I won because I’m not sick, and I won because I’m alive to share that story with you here from the very beach I used to dream of coming back to. I got control back of my mind. Now, I’m here to help you face your fears. Again, if you don’t have a cheerleader, I’m your girl. But you first must believe in yourself. I want you to know that you can be as fearless as you want. Baby steps are always okay…
I just want to remind you that I am only sharing my truth and the decisions I chose to make and the way I decided to fight to serve as inspiration and motivation for you to start your own process. They will always look different because we are different. Now it is time for you to say eff off fear. I am done with you. It is time to fight your own battles in your own way that feels right to you. In a way that you know in your heart and feel in your gut is right for you.
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Kelly Ann Gorman
